Monday, February 05, 2007

Hello from Ottawa

Brrrrr! I'm in very chilly Ottawa for the next two weeks on a course. Due to an administrative mix-up I was put up in this room



instead of the bare bones college dorm that everyone else is staying in. I'm not sure if the true massiveness of the bed comes across in the picture but trust me, it is King-sized and seems fit more for a Roman orgy than a business trip. Unfortunately, my life of luxury ends tomorrow when I have to check into the regular ol' dorm. I will post a picture of that room tomorrow and you will see the sharp contrast.

Tonight I'm in my room listening to Joni Mitchell and getting sentimental. Moments ago I was singing along to "I wish I had a river I could skate away on" and realized the irony that I am in Ottawa and do indeed have the Rideau River to skate away on. And I just might. But not tonight because it is c-c-c-cold and I am not used to this kind of bone-chilling winter!

There are analysts from all over Canada on my course and I met some interesting people today including a guy from Toronto. He asked me how I was liking Toronto so far and I told him it was quite an adjustment. He told me that Toronto is a city that you need time to learn to love (three or four years, in his opinion!). He echoed the sentiment that I've heard from numerous people -- that everyone hates it in the beginning but over time you learn to love its eccentricities. Alright Toronto, I'm willing to take some more time to learn to love you but come on, show off more of your good parts!

Truthfully, I'm *not* hating it. It's more like a complicated relationship that you're not sure is worth the effort -- but you're really hoping! I guess we'll see!

One thing that was kind of a sad turn of events was that Eli lost his job. Yes, the job that we moved across the country for. It was unfortunate, but they just couldn't afford him due to a bunch of factors and were forced to let him go. It's been a tough couple of weeks but we've both come to terms with this and are trying to see the positive in it. This might sound like a cliche but I really do believe that when one door closes another one opens and I'm absolutely confident that something wonderful is going to come along for him. He's such a smart, talented, diversely experienced person and people see that immediately. I'm not worried but I know that he is so I hope that things happen sooner than later for him.

Our lives have been filled with so much change lately. I'm so glad that we have each other to lean on...it makes both the good and the not-so-good a lot better.

You think I'd leave your side baby?
You know me better than that

You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees?
I wouldn't do that.

'Cause I'll tell you you're right when you're wrong
And if only you could see into me...

Oh, when you're cold, I'll be there to hold you tight to me
When you're on the outside baby and you can't get in
I will show you you're so much better than you know

When you're lost, when you're alone, and you can't get back again
I will find you, darling, and I'll bring you home
And if you want to cry I am here to dry your eyes

And in time you'll be fine
-Sade

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

i love sade. i loved sade when it wasn't ok for my punk rawk high school ass to love sade. i listen to her weekly. i will always love sade. that said...
i love you.
and miss the crap out of you. holy.
i share your sentiments about the one door closing, another will open. i also think that it has a lot to do with being mindful and open and accepting of change. opportunities will present themselves in different ways. the packages may not always seem 'great' at the time. perhaps the first job was just to 'get' you to toronto & bigger, better, more amazing things are yet to come? could just be a stepping stone. it's unknown, but you DO have each other and that is really something. i'm so glad you have that.
have fun in ottawa. miss you like crazy, girl.
megahugs from chilly, snowy etown.

2/05/2007 11:47 p.m.  

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